I am seeing tunnel vision in a world thats dark and cold, I can't believe how much I've changed since the days of old, I hope it's not temporary and I need to focus straight, I can't believe I almost lost control of my fate, I need forgiveness from the people I truely care about, I need support behind my back to help me spit it out and I am gonna win, I can't afford to blow this one, I hate myself sometimes, I love myself, I need this way of life because it holds me. Contradictions is a way of life - happiness is wealthyness is healthy now I've made it through those lies and deceit, I think whats done is done and I can't complain anymore, i am sure, now that I've found myself again it feels great I can't believe I'd almost lost control of my fate.